Spiritual Journey #1 Alex proved to me quickly he could still reach me. But my spiritual journey didn’t start there. It started way before, in the sticky Texas heat of my childhood, sneaking sticky-glazed donuts off the church bus and losing myself in the colorful chaos of my grandma and pawpaw’s Illustrated Children’s Bible. IContinue reading “Spiritual Journey: My Messy, Beautiful Road to Knowing We Don’t End”
Category Archives: Signs & Connections
Signs from Alex: The Rainbows I Begged For (and the Jeep That Whispered “Yes”)
Signs & Connections #2 The Elvis miracle on January 6, 2021—poster, beer, song, movie—shouted Alex was near. But the first weeks? That’s when my broken heart learned to ask… and his love answered in whispers that still bring me to my knees. If you’re grieving, please—open your mind and heart. Ask for a sign. YourContinue reading “Signs from Alex: The Rainbows I Begged For (and the Jeep That Whispered “Yes”)”
Leading with Empathy: How Grief Taught Me to See the Whole Person
Work Life Wisdom #1 Five years after Alex left us, I’m still COO of six companies, Mimi to two wild grandsons, and the one who feeds nine chickens in the evenings. Three years sober. Two years off Klonopin. I sleep most nights now. But grief doesn’t clock out. It shows up in my car betweenContinue reading “Leading with Empathy: How Grief Taught Me to See the Whole Person”
Signs from Alex: A Mother’s Spiritual Awakening
Signs from Alex: A Mother’s Spiritual Awakening In October 2020, my life shattered when I lost my son Alex to sudden heart arrhythmia at 23. Just weeks earlier, he’d shared his uncertainty about an afterlife, shaped by a church upbringing that instilled a strong moral compass but left him questioning a God linked to fearContinue reading “Signs from Alex: A Mother’s Spiritual Awakening”
Rising from Grief: My Spiritual, Personal, and Professional Rebirth
Introduction: Reflecting on 2021 In 2021, I shared several raw and heartfelt blog posts about navigating the profound grief of losing my son, Alex, at 23. My most recent post that year laid bare the weight of my pain—struggling to get out of bed, to lead at work, to find purpose without him. I wroteContinue reading “Rising from Grief: My Spiritual, Personal, and Professional Rebirth”
Questions, Signs and Depression
It’s been awhile since I have blogged. This momma is tired and struggling. There have been many times in my life I’ve thought that I’ve struggled with depression and I am sure I have, just not on this level. The last 8 and half months, there is no thinking, I’m definitely struggling. Struggling to getContinue reading “Questions, Signs and Depression”
Texas, Shooting Star and Pearls
Wednesday March 3rd – Sunday March 7, 2021, Billy and I flew to Texas to visit my sister and her wife for a few days. I get major anxiety when I know I am going to be leaving our home overnight much less more than one – since Alex physically left us. At home, isContinue reading “Texas, Shooting Star and Pearls”
“Ducking”
I’m skipping so many events with this post, but I promise I will come back to them. A few weeks ago, we purchased Alex’s next vehicle. He was determined to buy a Jeep. I have no doubt, had the events of October 6th not taken place, he and his jeep would be pulling in andContinue reading ““Ducking””
Celebration of Life
The days between Alex’s earthly passing and planning his service were extremely painful and time passed so quickly. I had so much help from family and friends that I am not sure how I would have survived these days without them. I had already begun studying communicating with our loved ones after their earthly passingContinue reading “Celebration of Life”
The Reality
After making the phone calls and knowing that with each one, the news was breaking someone else’s heart. His dad, sisters, grandparent’s, aunts and uncles, friends that are family, making the dreaded social media post because news spreads like wildfire… I immediately started trying to prepare myself mentally for the days ahead all while dyingContinue reading “The Reality”